About Rev. Renée

bdpic-renee     Welcome! And thank you for visiting “About Rev. Renée” page. My hope is that you will resonate with some of the paths I have traveled to know myself.

 

I am an empath/intuitive, ordained in the Order of Melchizedek, a Certified Soul Realignment® Practitioner and Spiritual Life Coach. How did I get there?

 

Here is my story … 

 

In hindsight, I knew as a kid growing up that I felt things differently than others, “knew” things I couldn’t explain.  My parents consistently told me I wore my feelings on my sleeve and, many times, I was accused of “making things up” and even punished for lying. If circumstances forced my parents to acknowledge what I said to be true, it was just a coincidence, luck, or a very good guess.  My parents (especially my Dad) just didn’t know how to handle anyone (especially their children) who did not fall neatly inside the box the labeled “Normal.” I quickly learned being different was bad and suppressed much of my thoughts and feelings through childhood and into adulthood. I didn’t realize it at the time, but I was choosing my friends based on the same beliefs as my parents. So, in essence,  growing up I was surrounding myself with people who would not appreciate “different.” I tried to test that belief with a couple of my closest friends and they didn’t believe me, either. So, even though I still knew I felt things differently, “knew” things I couldn’t explain, I kept it all to myself. Learning to go with the “status-quo” was “safer” than risking having my family and my friends thinking of me as different or even crazy. And I KNEW I wasn’t crazy. So, I never spoke about it to anyone. I grew up, got married, had kids, divorced and had a successful career. In spite of my “secret,” I thought life wasn’t so bad after all.  Through it all, those feelings kept bubbling up, I continued to know things I couldn’t explain. I never mentioned them to anyone, and I recall  very often saying to myself “….I knew ‘that’ was going to happen!” 

 

 I caught Chicken Pox when I was 3 months pregnant with my second son. I was in a coma for five days; the chicken pox was not just external but internal, as well. My lungs, liver, kidneys, the back of my eyes and esophagus were affected. I was so sick, the doctors even called in my parents because they weren’t sure what was going to happen. It was during this period of time that I had an out-of-body experience. To this day, I remember every detail how I left, came back and everything in between. I remember being calm, peaceful; I felt love like I have never felt before or since. I survived and so did my son. On my ride home from the hospital, I remember commenting how bluer the sky looked, and how greener the trees were, that everything seemed to be brighter, more alive. I knew then how extraordinary this experience was and that it had already changed the way I saw things! When I tried to tell my then-husband, his reaction and comments drove me right back to that little girl who was afraid of being judged not “normal” or crazy. 

 

And so it went. I never told anyone and I suppressed those thoughts and feelings by remaining active with my kids, my career and my community.

 

Years later, after the death of my Mom, I found myself trying to decide who I was and what I wanted to do with the rest of life. For 13 years, I had the privilege of sharing a home and a life with her.  We were mother/daughter, friends and confidants. Both of us knew her transition was coming but no matter how prepared you think you are, you are never truly prepared. And now I had to find a new normal. I had gotten involved with Unity several years before, and those principals resonated so deeply with me that it quickly become very much a part of the way I thought and what I believed. So I relied on those principals to guide me. I had been told – if at all possible – not to make big, important, life changing decisions for at least one year after losing someone close to you. So, I went about my life settling my Mom’s affairs, attending grief counseling and just keeping one foot in front of the other. I made it 8 months.

 

Looking back, my new normal was difficult to grasp. I was feeling the pull to get back to things I saw as part of my life, thought I wanted in my life. The truth is I was looking for something to drown out the “bad” childhood thoughts and feelings that were surfacing once again at an “alarming rate” and was having a difficult time controlling them. I decided to go back to work. From the minute I walked through door, something was different; the energy was off. It felt foreign to me … like I didn’t belong. I thought everyone in the office was different. But in true form as I learned as a kid, I suppressed it, thinking it would get better. It never did. It took me a year to realize it wasn’t them … it was ME! I was trying to fit in to a place, for whatever reason, I no longer belonged.

 

Through meditation, one thing that became clear was to take a leap of faith. So, after 30+ years in the mortgage and real estate industries, I walked away and left it all behind me. I began a small business I could navigate from home, but deep in my heart, I knew this was not meant to be long-term.

 

Also, through meditation, what kept coming up for me was a desire to do spiritual work in some form. “Who, me!” I thought. Again and again I would see this vision in my meditations, the idea growing a little more each time. I have always wanted to live at the beach. Thoughts and visions began to emerge in the form of living at the beach, performing weddings on the beach. I even had a name for my business: Weddings In The Sand. Of course, this meant I would need to be an ordained minister. Just buying a license wasn’t enough for me. I wanted to be more invested spiritually with my choice. I researched and researched all types of ministries, without success. Quite unexpectedly, I was introduced to the Order of Melchizedek. After learning more about this Order, I knew this was a path I wanted to pursue. It is amazing how the universe works!  Shortly after making that intention, two friends announced that a Priest with the Order of Melchizedek would be coming to Greensboro, NC (about an hour away) to offer classes and ordination. With my friends’ help, I enrolled in the program and two months later, I was ordained into the Priesthood of the Order of Melchizedek (I explain what this ministry is on another page). I wanted to help people understand their spiritual potential by embracing the fact that we are spiritual beings experiencing our spirituality in human form. It is my belief that better understanding of spiritual potential allows us to reach our potential in this lifetime. Knowing WHAT is not the same, of course, as knowing HOW.

 

Almost immediately after my ordination, crisis hit my family and derailed me physically, emotionally and, eventually, spiritually. I began to sink into an emotional hole that I couldn’t get out of. Nothing appeared to work (at least the way I thought it should) and I lost faith in anything ever being right again. I slowly distanced myself from my own spiritual practices and lost faith in ever accomplishing anything. I began to realize that I was just waiting to move on from this life to my next adventure. I truly believed that what I envisioned for me in this life was really meant for the next life. It took months, and was finding myself thinking of ways to end it all, but I finally reached out for help … spiritual help. With my mentors’ guidance, I started meditating again, setting positive intentions for myself, and believing I still had something to offer. Lesson learned: never, never, ever give up and reach out for help when you need it.

 

I started meditating again. Now I meditate two, sometimes three times a day. I mindfully practice positive prayer and affirmations. I consciously rethink negative situations until there is positive thought, i.e. driver cuts me off and my first reaction was anger and name calling. Sound familiar? Now, I push all those negative thoughts out of reach and fill the space with kind and compassionate thoughts, i.e. blessing the driver and wishing him/her safe travels. I discovered (or rediscovered) that everything we do, everything we think is a choice, whether conscious or not. And if it is a choice, then you can change it … or not. It is up to us.

 

What appeared to be solely by chance, I came across the course for Soul Realignment™ and was instantly intrigued. I signed up for the class and, by the time I graduated, I learned more about myself in ways I would never have thought. It was clear to me that, because we spiritual beings first and  human beings second, understand who we are at the spiritual level would only help us reach our potential as a human being.  I knew this was something I wanted to let people know about, help them and guide them to understand who they are spiritually so they can make decisions that will fulfill their potential in human form. If it can change my life, it will change yours. Contact me; make the choice to can get started making the right choices for yourself.